Hello everyone, I hope you are well. When I last wrote a blog, I did not think life would drastically change?
The most devastating news has been that I have lost my stepdad, Nick, to a brain tumour two months ago. This has completely turned our lives upside down. We have lost part of the five-piece jigsaw. Nick being gone has left a massive void in the lives of everyone he comes into contact with. At Nick’s service, the one word that was used to describe him was a legend. Nick was such a big personality with a kind and supportive manner. He installed a great work ethic into us Nick believed in helping those that would help themselves. You honestly don’t think you can live after such a big part of your family is gone. It is about just muddling through and hold the good memories and always remember the wise words Nick gave us that I will carry forever. We are all doing our best. Grief is like the waves you can be on your back floating through the day, then something can set you off the undercurrent of emotion can grip you and drag you under.
My mum is being a tower of strength. I honestly don’t know how you are doing it. I love you so much you are amazing. We are with you every step of the way. Ellie and Maddie, you are both wonderful you are showing such grace and resilience. I know you will make Nick proud love you. Bill and Jo carry on learning the skills nick taught you in building and no not extended lunches, you will do amazing lads love you. To Nick’s children Dan Lou, and Matt you are wonderful people. I can’t imagine what each of you feels you have all the qualities of Nick, will live on through you and your children, and us. We are all so lucky to have had Nick in our lives. My heart goes out to you all.
In addition, my Nan is poorly, and hopefully, she can make a recovery. She has a broken hip and the discovery of lung cancer. Fingers crossed everything goes well at the hospital appointments Nan is not being downbeat about it which, is a positive.
They say that things come in threes. I think it’s more like 300 at this point. My delightful dad and I use that term hanging by a thread. Has decided to come after our house at our lowest ebb. That is the mark of the man pray on the vulnerable, safe to say that I am not coping well. Struggling with anxiety and the reawakening of childhood trauma. When the time is right. I will release a blog that will give you my story but enough time on that human.
In, summary my life is absolutely amazing. I am for sure living my best life.
On a positive note, I have all but completed my level three teacher training at work. My teacher has been amazing and so supportive. I have been blessed with my incredible family and friends both at work outside and online supporting me during this difficult time. I have finished another summer at college. I can have a lot of self-care and focus on myself with the external pressures of work and focus all that energy on myself. PositivelyCerebralPalsy has continued to flourish even with my new look of bleach blonde hair. I feel this has been my outlet to have a place I can express myself when I feel different emotions. Everyone has been so supportive. I hope to be doing more blog pieces and collaborations going forward as this is my passion. Some highlights that I have had is a few months ago I had a written piece published by TES, the number one education publication. I spoke at Diverse Ed on inclusion schools and the power of the collective, As part of the Global Equality Collective.
I have started physiotherapy working on my legs and back to improve my flexibility and movement. There have been some positives too.
Look after yourself cherish every moment